Finding My Voice
When I was little I stuttered. I struggled to get my words out. It was frustrating, knowing what I wanted to say, but somehow not being able to communicate clearly. Either I would clam up out of embarrassment or the person listening would dismiss me mid-sentence because they’d lost interest in what I had to say. So for a very long time, I didn’t say much. I kept to myself and became shy and introverted. I barely raised my hand in class to answer questions or share thoughts because I was afraid of ridicule. Unless I was around close family or friends, I was silent. That pattern stuck with me for many years. But now, many years later, I am happy to say that I’ve overcome that issue. I still have moments when I can’t get the words out. Yes, I still periodically stutter and stumble over words, even as a mature college-educated woman. But I no longer allow that to keep me from speaking. I’m no longer shy or afraid to have my voice heard. Anyone who knows me will attest to that fact;) I don’t mince words. Actually, I have become quite outspoken and I love it. It’s been quite a long journey to get to this point. I’ve had to overcome a lot of baggage, insecurities, fears. Thank God for the healing love and patience of true friends and family. Now I can say that I am not afraid to speak or be heard. I’ve found my voice.
Even with all of that, what has been scary is this notion of blogging. So, on this first day of a brand new year, I’m drumming up the courage to try something new. At first I was quite content to just share my musings on social media, letting my newfound voice be heard there. But when numerous people, completely independent of each other, suggest something, you kinda have to take notice. “You should blog.” “Do you have a blog?” “Have you ever thought of blogging?” “Start a blog, J.” Not completely sure I know what all this means or what I’m doing, but I’ve decided to step out of my comfort zone and give it a shot. I’m not an expert by any stretch on any particular subject. I just have thoughts and opinions about various things, mainly those of which I am most passionate. From faith and family, to love and relationships, to fashion, beauty and just helping women recognize their worth…I am driven by all of it.
When inspired, I will write what comes to my heart. Most likely, it won’t be daily, weekly or follow any kind of routine or schedule. I want it to be organic, not forced. So when I feel the need to share, when I have something to say, that’s when I will post.
So here we go! As we embark on this new journey, who knows where it will take us. I hope that the things I share from time to time will be of benefit to you in some way. At the very least, I know that I have found a way to be heard, regardless of my stutter. May you do the same.
Source: Model Moxy